Day #2

Ok so it is the second day, and I am determined to write something every day. Preferably not at 1 AM every time as I have work tomorrow... and I should REALLY be going to sleep, so perhaps I will keep it short. Or at least attempt to.

Build a ladder moments:

  • Yummy matcha horchata latte thing I made myself
  • FINDING THE COVER THING FOR MY EARBUDS - you have no idea how happy that made me
Silliness and thankfulness aside (both equally important) there are two other items I need to address.
  1. My vision / where I see myself (living conditions/life style)
  2. Why I feel so guilty 
Number two will be addressed first. 

BUT BEFORE THAT - here is a GREAT article that made me snort and then chuckle and laugh again:
http://sdcitybeat.com/culture/well-that-was-awkward/a-super-chill-guide-to-dockless-bikes/ 

Great now I just feel like writing silly, so here is the TLDR: why should I have a comfy bed, options to eat almost whatever I want when I want it, when there are people without clean clothes, no access to a shower, have to deal with rain and no true sleep, I mean COME ON. Yes I have the guilt. The very very striong guilt. So you think, ok, you feel terrible about it,  then just do something about it. Yeah, I went a little extreme, and everyone thought I was crazy kind of and I guess I understand. I wanted to devote myself 100% to the world. If I am only for myself then who am I? Apparently that was not to be. I have to be more selfish, aggressive, pushy, etc etc etc. Either that, or you can't quit your job without another job. I get it. But I just wanted to take a year to give back full time. Is that really so bad? Society does not make sense to me sometimes. 

And then Reddit happened. It's like a blackhole for time.

I'll keep what I dream of short and sweet:
  1. one bedroom apartment
  2. two cats 
  3. the most comfortable couch in the world
  4. awesome internet
  5. all the tea
  6. quiet and peace - not parties and no shouting
  7. Comfy sweaters and sweatpants
  8. socks
  9. yoga mat 
  10. super comfy bed

Ok I'll get back to that list tomorrow I'm falling asleep. My eyes are closed already and I still need PJs.

Talk tomorrow!

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